it was the centre of my universe. (the end of HSFY)

It felt to weird condensing my whole years work into one folder jut now:

HSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHSFYHS_________________________________________________________________________________

It was the centre of my universe. not now. 

These last 8 months have been a whirlwind, a headache, a heartache, a triumph, a mystery, a joy, a weight, a hope and of course a journey. HSFY you are done. 

(MAOR 102 I'll come back for you later...) 

night before 1st 2nd semester final exam

I looked like this, this morning:

Should be doing this right now:

But I look like this...

EXAM TIME!

study day.

Chilled studying. I know it sounds weird but even though we only have 2 full days left to study for the HUBS 192 exam I didn't really feel stressed today, I just got on with it. Mainly the GI system from the aptitude book. Insert me in good old tut room 1:

Listening to worship music and talking to Sai and etc etc etc Goodnight. 

City Lights.

Looking out over the Dunedin city lights tonight. Got me thinking about the "adventure" that has been this year and how I'm nearly at the end of it. We had our final formal dinner tonight and the food was delicious, the people were good company and the music was entertaining but it got me pondering some things... 
I always seem tot be drawn towards stories or pictures or moments of meaning, of life and of connection but have I actively pursued that this year? No, not really. I long to experience life's great triumphs of human spirt and discovery, of kindled souls and moments that are meaningful or light or shocking or inspiring. But truthfully I have often just hauled my self up to my cupboard room and procrastinated, by myself, on my own. How am I supposed to 'taste the fruit of life' by myself? Not that I haven't had great experiences this year I just look back and know that I could have been much more involved. I can't be annoyed that I don't have deep meaningful friendships or a bunch of great "university" experiences if I didn't put myself out there so to speak. The longing is there but there's a disconnect between fantasy and action in the real world. A daydream believer... 

live in my own world