thoughts and song...

Sometimes I think we feel as though we all carry demons, of our past, our flaws, our insecurities or of our failings. So we are scared to let people in as we could potentially damaging them, hurt them. I think "Imagine Dragons" have captured this feeling well. Here's their song "Demons"

changes....no I'm stuck.

Everywhere I look it seems everyone around me is blossoming into new people as they enter new phases of life. Not me. I feel stuck. I haven't changed, grown up or bloomed into some beautiful form of my former self. I'm just here at uni in a hard as course and living in a merry go round. Maybe my world is moving to hard and fast that I don't have time to keep up! Thoughts.

Stuck.

Only @ Uni...

Story of the day:

My alarm woke me up @ 7 as usual and I promptly turned it off to have another 10 minutes of shut eye... 37 minutes later. Staring at my clock in disbelief I jumped out of bed and chucked on the clothes nearest to me (thus YELLOW craziness, insert photo) and my notes and run down the stairs to catch the shuttle that we get here at Aquinas. Get to uni and realise the ridiculousness of my attire as some fellow student briefly stare at me. Fast walking I make it to the lecture theatre in time to have one of the most challenging physiology lectures in HUBS we've had yet at 8 in the morning. Lovely. To top that off I've got a physics mid term test tonight @ 7 and I'm supposed to be studying right now. This doesn't happen in the real world. Only @ Uni.

Yellowness.

Study.

Cells test material of craziness.

Physics study sheet of DOOM.

Here's just a selection of the mountain of work I'm facing @ the moment, I'll be glad when it's over with!

I don't want to.

I don't want to be sitting here in the common room TrYiNg to study when it's a beautiful sunny day outside. I don't want to have a sore back from sitting so much, due to study. I don't want to feel like a hermit that never see's the outside world, except for lectures. But it's happening. Life of a (unmotivated, procrastinating, tired etc. etc. etc.) uni student.

Magic fairy...

Oh how I was there was a magic fairy who could take care of all my needs, to wave her magic wand and shinning dust over everything
With a flick of her wrist or a twirl of her hips the world would be transformed, from struggle to peace happiness in every pore
Oh but really that's not it, I want her magic for much more selfish deeds, to do away with hard work and study to replace them with ease
As I am still so tightly, yet mostly out of sight, clinging onto fairytales of good fortune and delight
No work to be done as she will make the knowledge magically flow from the page into my head, no long hours of practise and repetition as she will work her MAGIC instead

I wish.....

I'm living in a fantasy world and I don't know why I don't want to work hard for what I'm passionate about! A mystery to ponder as I still wait for my fairy to appear. 11:30pm thoughts.

Holidays.

Holidays day 5 now, wow.
Trying to relax but knowing I need to study do not go together. Chemistry and Physics study here I come.....tomorrow.

Work and Play